Mental Illness

Hey !

Voila, I just came up again from the darkness century.

After having so much troubles in last 6 horrible months now I'm back with some kind of though about "REGRET".

It's not about I'm regretting something about someone I've met before or hotels or foods. But it's about All of the plans that I've ever made now just become Discourses. When plans just stay discourses and never become true,  and decided to be forgotten just because you don't even know WHY.

When plans just stay discourses...  

Ketika rencana hanya tinggal wacana...

May be just because the laziness, or you're too tired to struggle or and then you just giving up.

That's what I feel right now. People tell and Internet shares about "The Wish List" that might helps you to remind what are you chasing for, your wish, your dream and things you wanna get it to be true. But in chasing the wish list it self we need to fight first and bleeding and crying and just keep believing. But sometimes and most of the times cowardice does exist. That is what happen, that thing (the cowardice) made the plans become Discourses.

What's the solution for this mental illness?

I'm suffering this right now, this is sick and very painful. You regret something that you don't even know the reason why. Just because the cowardice is taking control half of your brain and push down your self esteem. Beware of having less confident and self distrust.

So I decided to call my mom, hearing her voice could remind me the loves that I have. So, first thing first I should thanks god for everything that I've got, for every steps that I've passed, every lessons (successes and even failures ) that enlighten me and every single breath~ Alhamdulillah ...

Then I start to write the feeling burdening me...

So the solution for this mental illness are :

1. Do not regret, realize what you've got until right now and Thanks God for everything we have.

2. Do something, don't stuck with your mind that suffering the mental illness. If you decided to forget it and sleep it's just exacerbate the bad effect.  Remember.. Beware of having less confident and self distrust.

3. Consultation. Talk with someone you trust that could bring up your self esteem and your spirit.

4. Take a bath and take a time to walk around, see something, release you stress and eat something that has strong taste like ice cream (cold), burger(thick and mixed ingredients), something that could warm you like coffee, lemon-tea or hot chocolate.

5. Pray :)

So, good luck fellas ! Keep struggling, this is live ! What a live !

Ganbatte Kudasai ! Good Luck !